Sunday, October 20, 2013

A Nightmare

I had a dream last week. When I woke up, I was terrified, angry, sad and depressed. It felt so real though.. And, guess what? It came true today. It actually happened. I can't really explain how I'm feeling right now. Calling it depression would be an understatement. 

All my effort, my time, my thoughts, life decisions I made, all undone in one day. Am I angry? Am I sad? I don't know; I can't really tell how I'm feeling right now. All I know is that it's going to be tough. Well.. it's just another chapter in my sad life... 


Until next time,
Batman

Saturday, July 6, 2013

You only need the light when it's burning low....

Hello!

Yes, I’m alive. I was just too sad to write anything. Things haven’t been great lately. Remember how excited I was for 2013? Well.. 7 months in, I hate it more than I hated 2012. Somehow, everything I do finds a way to fall apart; and it sucks when you have no1 to talk to. So here I am, trying to let it out in a blog no one reads :P

We’re already in July. I will hit 25 in 15 days(assuming that I won’t get hit by a truck within the next 15 days of course – It’s a real possibility). Nothing seems to really surprise me lately. It is not numbness. It’s a different feeling. You feel the sadness, and you go “Wow, really?”, but you are not really surprised. So, if I actually got hit by a truck, it will be fucking sad, but it won't be a surprise. I don’t know for how long I can let it go on like this... Something’s got to give eh?

 Turning 25 soon

The loneliness is killing me. I've been trying hard to hide my depressions, but what’s the fucking point? So, I had this though while I was having lunch all alone the other day. How did I get here? How did it come to this? I've been working in this place for nearly 3 years now, and isn't there anyone I could find to sit and have lunch with me?

I recalled my early days at work; it wasn't always like this you know? I was a happy chap back then, I was in the best shape of my life, I loved cracking jokes and I loved hanging out with friends. I think they liked hanging out with me too. Oh! How I miss being happy….  And here I am, after 3 years.. lonely and miserable, can’t find a friend to hang out with.. or to watch a movie with or even to meet up and talk to -_-. WTF happened to me?

What do you do when your “friends” are ditching you? How do you deal with being ignored? (Being ignored is just the worst feeling EVER!)Are they ashamed of being seen in public with me? why can't I fit in anymore? How did I become an outcast? Should I just leave them alone? Should I just accept this as my fate and stop fighting it?

I'm Not Crying! 

I’m feeling very low right now.. I’m not worthy of calling myself  Batman tonight.

But hey! There’s still hope.. may be things will get better.  Let’s wait and see. I'll leave you with this song I ran into.. 

 Passenger-Let Her Go


Tuesday, April 16, 2013

A night to remember...



Batman told me in December of 2012 that 2012 itself was a very bad year. He was waiting for 2013 to come and sweep him off his feet. I, on the other hand, disagreed with him. I believed that you can’t really blame the year for being bad and that it was all in our hands to see that we have a good time. Now that it is April of 2013, I have to be honest and say I do agree with him. For me, 2013 was a year of change and it seems to be getting better with each passing day!

I started writing this to talk about the first of April, 2013, not to talk about myself. So, without further ado, let’s get down to it. This day was a Monday, a working day for all of my friends and myself. In the morning, I get a hurried call from one of my best friends, Wonderwoman, who came down to Sri Lanka about two weeks ago from Male. She says she’s catching a plane back to Male on Tuesday and that she HAS to meet us all in the evening. Typical. So, I shoot a few calls to my friends and a threat or two later, everyone agreed to meet that evening at the Supercafe, around 8.30 pm. This is where it all began.

Scene 1: Dinner with friends

I hitched a ride with Batman, and I was late, as usual, ensuring that both of us arrived at Supercafe about fifteen minutes past the agreed time. Supergirl was already there, fuming. She had come there right on time and had been waiting for us. Superman arrived about half an hour later, by which time the rest of us were gulping down Frappes and Shakes. Wonderwoman, our protagonist, was still not there. When I called her, I was told by someone that she had left her phone at home. Now we started to get worried. We all knew very well how she wasn’t very fluent in Sinhala and would probably get lost if she was coming there in a three-wheeler without a mobile phone with which to contact anybody.

All our worrying was a waste because, what do you know, she comes bursting inside, an hour past the time we were supposed to meet and gives us hurried apologies and kisses. She’s always doing everything in a hurry, as you may have noticed. That’s because she’s never on time. Her clocks are synced an hour past the real time and she tells me she’s learnt her lessons and will be better the next time, every time.

After dinner and a session of gossiping, we decided to head over to Torrington square. That’s where the real horror starts…

Scene 2: Torrington Square

Torrington is usually a very nice place at night, you see people jogging all over the place, maybe a few families sitting by the ponds. There are trees planted along the walkways and lamps lit on either side. When you are there, you can hear a steady murmur of people talking amongst them, the patter of their shoes on the concrete roads and you can feel and sometimes even smell the heat radiating from the stone blocks and the road all around you. There will be little moths flying into the lamps and a slight breeze and the atmosphere is such that you could just sit there and talk with a few friends and have a good time.

But, that Monday, it was pitch dark when we got there. Superman parked the car on a side, and in the white glow of a street light, you could make out about 2 other cars. All the lamps were switched off and we couldn't see a soul in sight. It was creepy, but since we were there, we decided to make the most of it.  The five of us walked into the grounds, the trees casting dark shadows all about us and stopping any of the street lights from lighting up the paths. So, we walked in and decided to make things spookier for us. The setting was perfect for a horror movie. One of us was the psychopath who was going to gruesomely murder the rest. The trick was to guess who it was because the suspicion was cast on one of us, then another and back again to the original person. It was very fun. There were large garbage bins where one could hide the bodies in. The ponds, which usually are lit up, were now pools of dark water that hid the dead bodies of countless people who would suddenly crawl out and stagger towards us menacingly. From the flag pole hung a dead body, not a flag. The half moon shining brightly in the sky helped make things a tad bit spookier.

Suddenly, a bunch of people started jogging in the dark. That was too much for us. Since none of us were black belt champions or secret ninjas, we made a dash for the car. In fact, we literally ran for our lives, screaming, and I made it first, and was stabbed five times by Batman. After I died dramatically, we all got in the car and thought we should go to Galleface, where it would be more fun.

Scene 3: 2 fast 2 furious

Galleface is where everyone goes. To eat, to get drunk, to sit and romance, to let your kids play, you name it. When we got there, it looked like the aftermath of an apocalypse. There were one or two people walking about. The wade shops were closed. There was a stage of some sort being pulled down, maybe from a musical show. Well, this sucked. We walked onto the pier at Galleface and sang a few songs and some movie themes. It was beautiful out there though. The black waves kept crashing onto the shore and the pillars of the pier, sometimes splashing our feet with sea water. The moonlight lit up the waves and the white Sea foam. We could see the lights of distant ships on the horizon and the sky was strewn with stars. It was a clear sky and I could make out Orion clearly standing out amongst the other stars.

Supergirl was having a mini tantrum; she wanted to leave this place and go have ice cream. We were also making fun of her because she used to believe when she was a kid, that people had babies by holding hands. There was enough fodder for us to laugh and make dumb jokes for the rest of the night. Since Supergirl wanted ice cream so bad and wouldn't let us sing the Lord of the Rings theme because everything about the sea at night depressed her, we left for Baskin Robins. We were all in a great mood, and Supergirl, Wonderwoman and I had a good time going “Woooo!” every time we took a slight bend.  It was 11.00 pm.

When we stopped near Baskin Robins, it was closed, that was when Superman told us he thinks the white hybrid behind us had been following us from Galleface. This was fun, and scary. We decided to have some fun and circled the roundabout near Odel twice. They did the same. Now, it was time to lose them So, Superman sped through roads and by roads, the white Hybrid chasing us at our heels, and we finally came to Galle road. We had lost them.

Since all the ice cream shops were closed, we thought we should go to Pillawoos and have some iced Milo. I have never been there, but the guys insisted it was great. Hurrah! A decision was made and we were blissfully driving towards Pillawoos and what do we see about 30 feet away from us? The white hybrid, of course. To make matters worse (remember, none of us were trained assassins or boxing champions), Superman overtook them and we were back to square one, with the hybrid on our heels.

Pillawoos was brightly lit with white fluorescent bulbs and there were a few vehicles parked there. The hybrid parked behind us. Well, we ordered the drinks and stayed in the car. This was a very hot, dry spell in the country, and in no time we were sweating and steaming in the car, with the air conditioning switched off and the shutters rolled down. It took about 15 minutes for the iced milo to finally reach us, by which time the guys in the Hybrid got sick of waiting and drove off. Hurray!

Our stomachs full and our minds on a strange state of high, none of us wanted to go home at that time. That was when Wonderwoman suggested we all go over to her apartment and hang out on the 9th floor terrace. Why not?

Scene 4: Midnight Swim

The streets were deserted. You could see one car cruising past you if you were lucky, but other than that, the alleyways were dark and ominous while the street lamps only served to make things scarier by casting various shadows. We stopped at Wonderwoman’s apartment and went straight up. The air was hot and humid downstairs but on the 9th floor it was slightly cooler. On one side, you could see the entire city from up there, and from the other, you can see the beach. All the lights in the houses were switched off, so there were lights from street signs, street lamps and from a tall building construction a few blocks away. You can see the cranes and other equipment just lying there, cold and dead in the night, as the people slept on.

A few more stairs up, and then you see the swimming pool. With eager eyes we looked in to the dark blue water, as it invited us. A part of us said it was crazy. It was exactly 12 midnight, we all had to go to work the next day and to top it all, we didn’t have any swim wear. That was what Wonderwoman was there for. She was more excited than any of us (and the rest of us were really excited, so you can imagine…), and pleaded with us to take a swim. And before we could even agree (we were going to agree anyway) she ran down to her apartment to get us some clothing.

She comes up with a bag full of clothes and towels. Hurriedly we changed into them and like mad people, we sneaked into the pool. It was pure magic. The water wasn’t too cold and we started off by splashing ourselves like fools. Then we just relaxed and looked at the inky black skies… there were wisps of grey cloud floating past, hiding the moon at times. The stars were blinking down at us. Some of the tiles at the bottom of the pool were broken and cut our feet. But we didn’t care. We screamed, we laughed, we acted movie scenes and we jumped around. I don’t think I can quite explain our euphoria at that moment but, it was one of the best nights of our lives. In that single moment, we had let go of our fears, responsibilities and any feelings of hopelessness we had or may have had. All we could think of was how happy we were and how wonderful everything in life was, and will be.

This went on for well over an hour and it was Supergirl who brought us back down to earth. Someone should always be there to do that because, having a good time with friends will take everyone to a place where they don’t want to come back from. We got out of the pool, unwillingly, and it was very cold outside. Supergirl, Wonderwoman and I shivered our way towards a corner where we changed clothes after threatening the guys to not come to that side, if they valued their lives.

We were all pretty emotional after all this so, we did a group hug on the terrace and I made a speech about friendship and how Wonderwoman, with all her quirks, was in fact the instigator of fun in our group. She was leaving for Male the next day, so we said our goodbyes. It was time to go home.

Scene 5: The end

That Monday was an epic day for all of us. The next day was normal, so I will not talk about it. We all went home tired, but in an elevated state of happiness. It gets you thinking, we need more of this in our lives. We need more happiness in our lives. And it gets back to the theme with which I started writing, about how our happiness lies in our hands. I can safely tell Batman, that I was right as well, maybe even more right. ;)

Saturday, March 2, 2013

Acceptance!


Hello fuckers!

How are you all doing? The year 2013 hasn't started as well as I hoped, but…… Fuck it! When has anything ever lived up to expectations eh?


Acceptance is the only solution!

This week has been a real bitch. Depression was on show, Batman had to face the harsh realities of this fucked up world AGAIN, people were scolded (Not really  :P), even more depression was on show… and tears were shed…


Hangs head in shame..


Just when you think it’s over, the universe finds new ways to fuck you you :)   


Fuck the Universe! 

On the plus side, I watched a few good movies this week. I really enjoyed “Frankenweenie”; the movie screamed “TIM BURTON” (in a good way J ) and I thought it was a really well made movie.  It’s about time eh?



Tim Burton is Back!

I also watched “Wreck it Ralph”. It was a very different movie and I just LOVED it. Everything was awesome about this movie…. the story, animations, voice acting, direction, everything!


Wreck it!

How the hell did “Brave” win best animated film over “Wreck it Ralph”? 


Fuck The Academy! 


I’ll leave you with this little gem from Tim Burton (From the early 80’s). ENJOY!


Vincent (1982) 


Yours truly,
Batman! 





Thursday, December 27, 2012

Tonight...We are Young!


Hello fuckers!

It has been a while eh? I was busy furnishing the batcave for the last few weeks.. so anyway, I think I’m finally done and I’m pleased with the way it turned out. I wanted to write about a few things, but I’m not in the mood to write anything serious right now… so I’ll save it for another day. Instead I thought of sharing some random stuff I liked on the internet with you all… 

I have been listening to this song A LOT lately; I don’t know what it is, there is something very refreshing about this song. I heard the “Tonight.. We are young..” part on a TV commercial and  immediately google searched for the song and found it. It’s probably a very popular song, and everyone knows it already.. but that's just how i roll! I tend to do things the hard way ;)

Here is the link for the song..


We are young

Here is the acoustic version..


We are young (Acoustic) 

In other news, I saw a few good movies this week; namely “The Perks of being a wallflower”, “The Hobbit”, “Cinderella man” and “Argo”. All four were fantastic movies, but “The Perks of Being a Wallflower” was the one that moved me the most. It was such a wonderful movie and I loved every minute of it. The story had a lot of heart to it and the movie had a very different and unique  tone to it. The characters were really well portrayed and I could really relate to all the main characters in the movie. May be that’s the reason why I like it so much; so I’m really curious to find out what others thought about the movie. 


The Perks of Being a Wallflower

One of my favorite lines from the movie... 


"we accept the love we think we deserve"

That’s it from me today. So I guess I’ll see you when I see you. Happy holidays motherfuckers!


Batman says: "Happy Holidays" 

Yours truly,
Batman!




Wednesday, December 5, 2012

Jobless


The thing is… the thing is I’m looking for a job these days and I can’t seem to get one ;) I’m trying to look at things positively even though it definitely does not feel like a nice walk in the park. There are those terrible days when you feel that nothing is ever going to work out. That’s when you hang out with someone and complain about how things could have been much better, much, much better.

So you might want to watch a YouTube video and make yourself feel better by laughing as loudly as possible. But try as you might, there are some thoughts that you just cannot remove from your mind. Like for instance I always wondered about those people who tell you to do whatever that makes you the happiest. I always think about that. No, I don’t want to pull out my scrap book of sad story clippings of my life just yet but if I want to talk about what I am thinking in general, it is this: the things that make you happiest may not necessarily be the best for everyone else. I know what you’re thinking, fuck everyone else. Do what you want to do. But that’s not always possible.


Fuck you

For instance, what I really wanted to do was become an interior designer but there were some issues. Money being the biggest issue. See, everything revolves around money (I think Batman can teach you a thing or two about the relationship between money and happiness). You can’t afford to go to a fancy Interior design school because you don’t have money and then on the other hand, let’s say you do get a couple of loans, mortgage your house (your parent’s house that is) and do become an interior designer eventually. There’s the really sad situation of finding a job! Haha! Well, it’s not funny, really. So, all things considered, I half-heartedly did some degree or the other that can secure me a job, thereby assuring job security and money FOREVER!! Hooooray!

This keeps nagging me in the back of my mind but I suppose I will eventually learn to let go and move on with my life. I’ve got other things to keep me happy. Like my Nepenthes plant which I want to see catch cockroaches when it’s old enough. There’s always a silver lining.


Atta boy

Either way, I’m going to look back at what I have written here and then smile and think how stupid all this is. I recently read some stuff I wrote when I was fourteen and boy was I glad no one ever set their eyes on it!
Here’s my favorite part from the movie ‘Horrible Bosses’. It always cracks me up.


Let's Start a BLOG!


It was a cold, dark November evening when I saw batman walk into the bar. It was our hangout; our place of solitude when the universe hands out too much to us. I could see that look in his eye as he slumped on a bar stool and let out a quiet sigh of frustration. We had had enough. It was payback time.

To be honest, it was not a cold, dark November evening and we weren’t in a bar. Unfortunately, we don’t get to hang out in bars and be frustrated. It was November alright, but it was just like any other day, bright and hot. But one thing is true, we were pretty frustrated. We were angry and we wanted to kick some hooligans onto the curb. We aren’t violent people by nature but by the gods, we were going to do something about it!! We decided then, at that very moment, that we will start a motherfucking blog and complain about everything! Isn’t that after all what heroes do? It isn’t? Stop being such a hater.

Anyway let me assure you, this is the beginning of a long and eventful journey. We will talk about our hobbies, our quirks and how we hate everything in general. And another thing, we love to swear so, please don’t get all offended and stuff.

Our first blog post is going to be a joint effort so I’ll hand over the reins to Batman so he can tell you all how much he hates loves you 

Love,
CW



What'sup motherfuckers?

So you heard about how it all started from Catwoman herself..  But this wasn’t the first time that we had the idea to start a blog..

Every once in a while we will both go like..  “We should totally start a BLOG!”




Kinda like this..




But we never did……................. UNTIL NOW!  
Anyway, myself and Catwoman will blog about our crime fighting experiences ("Wink"), our fucked up society/culture/life, world peace, movies, music, football, Cricket, F1, game of Thrones,  random thoughts and just about anything and everything. 

Oh.. and one more thing.. If you are offended by swear words, WTF are you even doing here? Please do fuck off! This blog is clearly not for you....  and the rest of you! Fasten your seatbelts, sit back, and enjoy the ride!

Yours truly,
Batman!