Hello!
Yes, I’m alive. I was just too
sad to write anything. Things haven’t been great lately. Remember how excited I
was for 2013? Well.. 7 months in, I hate it more than I hated 2012. Somehow,
everything I do finds a way to fall apart; and it sucks when you have no1 to talk to. So here I am, trying to let it out in a blog no one
reads :P
We’re already in July. I will hit
25 in 15 days(assuming that I won’t get hit by a
truck within the next 15 days of course – It’s a real possibility). Nothing
seems to really surprise me lately. It is not numbness. It’s a different
feeling. You feel the sadness, and you go “Wow, really?”, but you are not
really surprised. So, if I actually got hit by a truck, it will be fucking sad, but it won't be a surprise. I don’t know for how long I can let it go on like this... Something’s got to give eh?
Turning 25 soon
The loneliness is killing me. I've been trying hard to hide my depressions, but what’s the fucking point? So,
I had this though while I was having lunch all alone the other day. How did I
get here? How did it come to this? I've been working in this place for nearly 3
years now, and isn't there anyone I could find to sit and have lunch with me?
I recalled my early days at work;
it wasn't always like this you know? I was a happy chap back then, I was in the
best shape of my life, I loved cracking jokes and I loved hanging out with
friends. I think they liked hanging out with me too. Oh! How I miss being
happy…. And here I am, after 3 years..
lonely and miserable, can’t find a friend to hang out with.. or to watch a
movie with or even to meet up and talk to -_-. WTF happened to me?
What do you do when your
“friends” are ditching you? How do you deal with being ignored? (Being ignored is just the worst feeling EVER!)Are they
ashamed of being seen in public with me? why can't I fit in anymore? How did I become an outcast? Should I just leave them alone? Should I just accept this as my fate and stop fighting it?
I'm Not Crying!
I’m feeling very low right now..
I’m not worthy of calling myself Batman tonight.
But hey! There’s still hope.. may
be things will get better. Let’s wait
and see. I'll leave you with this song I ran into..
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